Monday, March 9, 2009

Disheartened

I'm back. Has it really been 2 weeks since I last posted? For shame.

I'm not going to lie and say that I've been doing well, either. I've been doing pretty crap as far as weight-loss and fitness go. My manager changed my work schedule so that I can't make any of the classes at the Crossfit gym, so I haven't been there in almost 2 weeks. Unfortunately I haven't been to the globo-gym either, so there's been a dearth of exercise in my world. I haven't been tracking my calories either, and we all know what happens when we forget to do that. All in all, it's caused a net gain of a few pounds. I'm fully over 200 again (probably around 206-208) and that's bad times. I'm having to use the 2nd notch on my belt instead of the 3rd as a result, and that just feels bad.

This is very disheartening for me, because I always felt that once I got my crap together that it would just flow for me easily the rest of my life. But now I find how easy it is to start back down that slippery slope of laziness and fast food.

I've got to get back under 200. Have to. There's no real excuse for going over. I just haven't made myself do the work that I need to do.

I've started counting my calories again today. I'm aiming for 2200-2400, which is what I was eating when I was losing weight before. Getting into the gym is going to be a bigger challenge, because this weekend I am moving to a new apartment, and I have to take care of all the crap that comes along with that, including packing, which limits my free time quite a bit. I'm hoping to get out of work early enough to get to the gym tonight and just do something. I don't have a good plan right now, which is making it hard to get motivated, but I know that if I just get in there I'll come up with something that'll get my heart racing, and I'll feel better when I'm done. I need to learn to make better use of the things I have at home as well (such as a kettlebell and pull-up bar) instead of making excuses. I'll try to keep a consistent posting schedule to at least keep myself accountable. No better time to start than today.

5 comments:

40 Something said...

Geoff, that belt will be on the third and fourth knotch soon, just stick with it, you can do it

Ripx180 said...

hang in there man. If you execute your plan you will be back were you want to be in no time. I have always thought once I got where I wanted it would be easy to maintain... I have walked this path to many times to know thats just not true (at least in my case). Keep the posts coming.

Rob Tucker said...

This is very disheartening for me, because I always felt that once I got my crap together that it would just flow for me easily the rest of my life.

This is the hardest lesson that you'll ever learn on this journey. I felt the same way quite a few times - wondering when I was going to be able to put this thing on auto-pilot and coast. I dropped over 110 pounds, and then life happened. I poured 70 pounds back on in the course of 6 months because of life's little issues (divorce, loss of job).

Hang in there, but get used to the fight. This one's lifelong, as much as I hate to say it. It's worth it.

Brian said...

you either decide to make the lifestyle change or don't. There is no maintain, there is no crash diet, there is no "life happens". None of that is needed if you stay commited to being what you set out to be.

Kristen said...

Sometimes gaining some back can be great motivation for getting your ass back in gear.

You haven't gone too far back. Get to it!

We have to be in this for life. Long-term focus...