Today's Weigh-In: 201.2 lbs.
5-Day Average: 199.45 lbs.
My weigh-in is what I get for eating Chinese food last night. I didn't go over on calories for the day, though, so I'm not really sure what the deal is. My eating was fine on Monday and Tuesday, totally clean. I haven't worked out since I've been back, though. My work schedule has been erratic, and to be honest I've just been lazy. I miss the soreness in my muscles, though, and I'm itching to get back into a serious routine.
I've noticed that I've lost a lot of the fire that I used to have with regards to weight loss. I used to obsess over it, I would get in fights with my girlfriend about it, I would read fitness websites constantly. I still read a lot, but I just don't have that burning passion in my belly any more. Which sucks, because I'm not there yet. I'm the guy that Billy described in his last post: satisfied enough, but not happy with where I am. I think my problem is a bit different from most others in that I wasn't ridiculously fat to begin with, so the relatively minor loss of 30+ pounds looks and feels like a lot more than it really is. I now look like a bigger, normal guy. And, at 17% body fat, with normal numbers on all gauges of health, I am a healthy, normal guy. But who wants to be normal? I want to be the stronger, leaner, faster, and more capable than everybody else. I know I have to work for it though, and that's where it gets sticky. I'm not sure what I'm going to do about it, but I know I have to do something. I don't want to burn out and fade away.